i am

i am not who i am
i am not my thoughts
i am not my Self
who am i ?

for the longest time

i have been told that
i do not need to know
i do not need to think
i do not need to choose

my fears drive me away
my desires bind me to stay
my weariness urges me to sleep
but these are not Mine

so i take the red pill

i unlearn what i have learned
i dare to know
i dare to think
i dare to choose

i conquer my fears
i control my weaknesses
i dissipate my desires
i escape my immaturity

then

i see Light
i see truth
i see purpose
i see Love

i am awake
i am aware
i am free
i am Me

still

this is not the end
this is the beginning
of an eternal journey
back to the First Source

9 August 2003
declaration of independence

"When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things."